it has been such a long time since that happened.
the feeling was torturous but i felt better afterwards.
maybe.
everything seems so different now.
and i don't like it a bit.
there always be a question mark right in front.
which will lead to another enormous one.

how i wish i could be honest to Life.
but i can't.
somethings are just meant to be left inside me.
only me.
no one else.