what a long week. ISP was toturing me slowly and refuses to kill me.
sigh. submission is over and im just waiting for Friday to pass by so i can continue with my screwed up life.

sometimes i wish i could be someone else. Someone who just couldnt give a crap and could just have a fucking enjoyable life without having to worry about no shit. jealouss.
im sick of having to suppress my emotions and always have to be mindful of others' feelings. at times like this i wish i could just vanish. i can't be bothered with what has been happening anymore. it's as though nothing matters anymore. fuck it. i can't do anything abut any shit.