i have never felt so scared in my life before. and i have never cried so hard. why him? he don't deserve this. he don't deserve all the pain and suffering. he has never raise his voice. he has never been mean. he has been working real hard. he doesn't get enough rest. he doesn't complain a single bit. and now he has to go through all this. why?! why can't it just be me. i don't know who to turn to. i don't know who to seek for help. i'll just have to hope for the best. i realised i'm not strong enough to handle this well and with an open mind.

When you're going through a hard and tough time, you will know who your family is, who are your siblings and who your real friends are. Because every time when you are happy, everyone would stick around. you can never tell if you can always count on them.