im so sad. im so sad that im beyond sad. im heartbroken. i would still be crying till now but i know im just gonna waste my tears for nothing. if only you really appreciate me as a person, as a friend and as a lover. i literally felt like a Toy when you played me. why do you have to keep secrets? how can i even trust you? it's so sad like that. but i know time will help me heal. it's part of Life. Fuck. i hate this feeling. i hate going through this. i hate to have additional stress out thoughts that i have to deal with mentally. i don't mind physically, just not mentally.
i don't understand your Theory about relationship. even if you tried to explain endless time, it still doesn't make sense. it's not even logic. sighhhhh.

lucky the weather has been very pretty lately. it doesn't add to how fucked up i feel.